Friday, June 26, 2009
Recent goings-on...
Yep, we are engaged to be married! Shannon surprised me with a proposal during the fireworks at Magic Kingdom in Orlando! Very sweet, romantic, all that stuff (he's very grand gesture romance, I'm very everyday practical romance, doesn't mean I didn't cry!!!)
Wedding plans are under way, all we know for sure right now is that nuptials will take place in the grand state of Tennessee in 2010!
Thanks so much to all those who lent their support and their ears during the last year. Your presence is much appreciated, and hope I didn't lean too hard on anyone!! Also, even though I hope cancer never touches your life or the lives of those you hold dear, I hope I have opportunities to return the favor of support to you in the future! I'll be watching for those opportunities!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
We have many faults, but alcoholism ain't one of em...
Nay, nay, I say. We revere the stuff.
I believe in playing games, too!
I don't have much else to share today, so I'll take inspiration from elsewhere. The lovely Cortney posted a little game that looked fun, so I'll have a go as well!
A game
the rules:
write 5 "beliefs"-- rules you live by -- you are not allowed to get serious or preachy, political or religious! These are just for fun and to see if other people are as quirky as you!
So here goes:
- I believe in Tequila.
- I believe coffee should be savored, and chocolate covered espresso beans are near heavenly.
- I believe in alone time.
- I believe shopping therapy cures nearly any emotional ailment.
- I believe that sometimes sleeping in until noon (or later!) on a weekend is imperative.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Light at the end of the tunnel...
The stressful part about the radiation was that the doctors are giving him the choice to have the treatment or not. With the chemo it was "do this, or the cancer will eat you"; this follow-up radiation is a little trickier. He's had such a successful recovery (remission after 3 rounds of chemo), it's been difficult for him to decide whether or not to even have the radiation. The decision was based on the discussion with both doctors of long-term risks versus long-term benefits.
Long-term risks include:
- 1% chance of developing another type of cancer (leukemia, or other systemic cancer)
- Slight risk of developing lung cancer later in life (due to the fact that the radiation field for his cancer is in the center of his chest and covers a several centimeter large area, necessary to shrink the home of the bulky cell hodgkin's lymphoma). He should never, ever smoke.
- Higher risk of cardiovascular issues later in life involving the tissues exposed to the radiation (which in this case, since the area is rather large, would likely include several of the large arteries and veins feeding both the heart and lungs, as well as the heart muscle itself)
Benefits include:
- 20-40% increased chance of lymphoma not returning in this area. This sounds ambiguous, I know, and it's a little scary to make a decision based on something you don't completely understand, and when you trust statistics as little as I do. The type of Hodgkin's Lymphoma that Shannon has has a relatively high recurrence rate compared with other types of Lymphoma and with other types of cancer overall. Some people must undergo several rounds of chemo before the cancer stops coming back. And then, there's the fact that only the chest area (the area that contained the largest mass in Shannon's case) will be radiated. The areas in the neck and armpit were significantly smaller, even though those tumors grew more aggressively and had a higher rate of metabolic activity before he was in remission.
So the last question Shannon asked the doctors, and maybe their answer was obvious, but it's hard not to ask, was "If you were me, would you do this?" and the answer in both cases was a resounding yes.
The technology (the Trilogy thing I mentioned earlier) wound up not being a factor in his case, because the radiation field is too large for the newer technology to make any difference. The machine is great if you are pinpointing a tiny little area to reduce the risk of damaging nearby non-cancerous tissues.
In addition, the radiation should not as difficult to tolerate as the chemotherapy treatment. I think the most often reported side effects are sunburn-like rashes on the area being treated, fatigue, and perhaps some small appetite disturbances (but thankfully, not nausea or other stomach problems).
The radiation therapy will take place over a 3 week period with nearly daily visits. Luckily, he can have it done right here in town, so no 40 minute drives every day (what a relief).
And so we begin the radiation - the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully, he'll be feeling all right and back to work in June, and will stay healthy, happy and cancer-free for the next 60-80 years. I know that will make ME very happy.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Things I am loving right now...
1. Cortney's cake blog - www.cortneybakescakes.blogspot.com - GO CORT!
2. The fact that Shannon's very last chemotherapy treatment takes place in less than 5 days - we're almost done, folks!
3. Author Ken Follett - Thanks to Dana at www.allthingsdana.blogspot.com for the recommendation!
4. Honey Crisp Apples
5. The fact that when the two of us whistle for long enough, my dog Bo starts howling.
6. My Lemongrass and Orange scented aromatherapy candles from PlantLife.
7. Florida winter weather - anyone up for 60-70 degree daytimes and 40-50 degree nights with the occasional 80 degree day sprinkled in for January through March? Mememememe!!!
8. My faux cowhide purse. I can't help myself.
9. My chaco flip-flops. Yes! Flip Flops in January! (see #7 for details)
10. Coke Zero.
11. My Dyson Vacuum cleaner. One of the best household electrics I have ever purchased.
Okay, so it's not so great, but it's what I'm currently loving. What are you loving right now?
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
For Cortney - Recipe for Apple Stack Cake
6 c. self-rising flour
2 c. granulated sugar
1/2 c. butter
1/2 c. shortening
3 large eggs or 4 small
1/2 c. buttermilk
1 tsp pure vanilla extract
There are no instructions - this part I'm just recalling from learning to do from Mamarosie. Sift the flour into a large mixing bowl (you'll want the top of the bowl to be very wide !!). Make a well in the center of the flour large enough to work the rest of the ingredients. Add the sugar, butter, and shortening and smash together using your hands. Add the eggs one at a time, working into the sugar/fat mixture. Last, add the buttermilk in three installations, working in some of the flour from the sides of the bowl to bring the mixture back to a batter consistency. Last, add the vanilla extract. Once all ingredients are incorporated, begin working the flour into the batter until you have a stiff enough dough to form a ball that is slightly less dense than cookie dough (I don't know how else to describe!!).
At this point, you can refrigerate the dough for 1/2 hour or just go on into separating into 6-7 smaller balls of dough. Press each small dough ball into the bottom of a greased and floured 9 inch round cake pan until you have covered the bottom of the pan with a relatively thin layer of dough. (it helps if you have a whole bunch of 9 inch round cake pans, cuz then you can do them all at once and just bake!) Bake each layer at 400 degrees for 11-15 minutes or until "golden brown and delicious" to steal a phrase from Alton Brown. Recipe should yield about 6 or 7 layers (in my family we inevitably burned one or had one stick to the pan!!!). Turn the layers out onto cooling racks or tea towels to cool completely.
For the apples, there is no recipe. You can just use jarred applesauce and add some spices, or you can cook some fresh, frozen, or dried apples (I find 3 lbs of fresh apples works, and usually I have some left over) and sweeten and spice them. The spices we always use are similar to pumpkin pie spice. 1/2 tsp cinnamon, 1/4 tsp clove, 1/4 tsp allspice, 1/4 tsp nutmeg, or any variation of the like. I find also that the preference is toward a slightly tart apple flavor, and to that end, I usually only use around 1/3 to 1/2 cup sugar to sweeten the apples (this can be left off entirely if the apples are sweet enough!!).
Once you've got your apple "sauce" made, begin layering the cake. Advice is to choose the most attractive layer for the top, and hopefully your layers are near to the same thickness with each other. Once installing the bottom layer on desired surface, place generous layer of apple sauce all the way to edges. Repeat for each layer except top. Wrap cake tightly in foil or keep in air tight cake keeper and wait 2 days to cut. The layers are dry and need time to soak up the apple mixture into the cake. I find that even after a couple of days, when you cut it you get lots of crumbs, but I think that's due to the slightly cookie-ish layer consistency.
Serve with or without whipped cream (I love it with a tiny bit of whipped cream and cup of coffee in the morning!)
Wow, I took forever putting that recipe on, didn't I! I hope you will try it and hope that you like it. Perhaps you can even give me some pointers. I only make it a couple times a year, and am not the world's greatest baker, so if there's something I'm doing now that could be changed to produce a better texture, I'd love to hear about it. It's a bit of effort, but I think well worth it. Of course, I am biased, being from East Tennessee wanting to carry on the tradition from Mamarosie!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
past and present - travel and holidays...
When the holidays come around, I think about holidays long past and people no longer with us, as I'm sure you all do. We lost Mamarosie in July 2000 - she was my great-grandmother. I still miss her, of course. I was fortunate enough to have spent my entire childhood living in the same household with her. We had four generations of women in that house during my childhood years. I basically grew up with 3 mothers instead of one (my sister had 4, if you count me, and she probably does!).
Anyway, whenever I think about Mamarosie now, some of the memories fly by like little still photographs in my mind, and other things play like short video clips. Some of the most vivid of these memories include her hands. She was always busy with her hands either baking at the holidays, sewing or crocheting, holding and patting someone's baby, braiding my hair or my sister's hair, or even stroking our hair as we cried over some small hurt. She also sang or softly hummed a tune most of the time.
I also remember her teaching me to make apple stack cake for Thanksgiving and Christmas (thanks Cortneytree for your question, it dredged up this memory for me!). It's one of my most precious memories that bubbles up during the holiday season, because it represents the passing of knowledge and tradition across generations. Because it reminds me I learned something from her - that I learned many things from her - and reminds me that ultimately, I came from her. I can't help but feel good about that. I hope she felt as good about it as I do.